One

I'm in a rush. Fools Rush.

I'm making it short and sweet.

Bottomline: I love Mark A. Kelly.

Breathe With Me

Breathe With Me

Are You sure you know what you're getting into?

This is me.

Crude & Uncouth. (Intelligent)

Haughty and Witty.(Funny)

Crazy & Hot-tempered. (Wild-away from eyes of the public)

Jack-of-all-trades, master of none. (handy)

Demanding and fiery. (fearsome)

Dreamy when i'm alone. (build sandcastles in the air alot)

I cry more than people think i do. (sensitive)

Will you want to go thru that with me?

Will you want to sit by the shores with nothing but silence and me?

Will you let me lean on you when i'm worked out? [no matter from what ;) ]

Put up with my tantrums?

Put up with my imperfection and flaws which by the way i have many.

When you wake up.. The first thing you see is this.

Are you alright with that? Oh there's always the office. =)

I'm oblivious to the world sometimes.

what they do. so i prefer solitude when you're not here.

I know i know i'm not making sense.

then again i always never do..

except when I tell you I LOVE YOU.

Perfect Dreams

I asked my mother whether dreams came true.

I asked my father if perfection existed.

I asked my friends if love was true.

I asked god if He would give me happiness in life.

My mother told me Yes, they did.

My dad told me Yes, it does.

My friends told me if it hurts, it is.

I believed everything they said, I was satisfied.

but I wasn't happy. I grew up thinking maybe they had lied.

Lied to make me happy. The truth was, it made me mad.

I lived thru life trying to make my dreams come true.

I ran in circles searching for that perfection.

I bled only to find that the love i had before didn't hurt.

I gave up. I wanted to. I decided that ok, life isn't perfect.

dreams don't come true, love isn't true.

So since god doesn't lie, I asked of him again.

I asked god to set the lies straight. I asked for happiness in life.

I waited. And I waited. Then I waited. I knew god wouldn't desert me.

He didn't. He made sure I knew that He could make perfection exist.

That He had given me strength to make dreams come true.

He showed me how true His love for all his creation was.

God gave me Mark.

And by that he gave me all the happiness in the world.

A perfect dream.

Reunion

I've Found What Was Missing,

That was i was searching in my troubled sleep.

When i lay to face my once again troubled heart, i shut my eyes..

and i see him. the man who brought a smile to my face, that calmed down the storms.

he shone a light so bright, i'll never i have to walk in the dark again.

he gave me many reasons to smile and look forward to tomorrow.

i'd look into his eyes and see fire burning thru a sapphire, the light dancing when he smiles.

Mark A. Kelly: I Love You.

A Quad Reconciles

Khairul, Shikin, Elfie, Daryll, Khad, Malia, Wati Su & Kumar

All In Da House: Ma House

Different Distance

No. He says. He doesn’t have any doubts. Feeling confident of a happily ever after for the both of us. Looks that way he says. I don’t doubt my feelings for him. It's there, it’ll always be there. I don’t doubt his feelings either. It’s just the distance. Everyday, I wonder, even for the briefest moment, if this is all real. If HE is real because when everything starts looking good, we women would wonder. Excuse me for thinking like a woman. Now I know why the gents get irritated with the ladies when they do. In their minds, they would be wondering why we can’t be satisfied with what we have. Why can’t we take things for what they are? Well you see gentlemen, if we did, then we’d all be homosexuals because then there’d be no difference between us. We’d all be men. Pardon us for that’s just the way it is. So I’m entitled to have my fair share of doubts. It’s because I love you that I think so much. It’s because I care that makes me so worried about us. It’s because I treasure your existence that I don’t want to lose you. So let me dwell in my misery, confuse myself in worries and anxieties and go crazy. If that’s what it is like to love you then so be it. I’ll go through it. Endure it. Make it. Hopefully with that happily ever after as an ending. I do belong to you. My whole heart belongs to you. Some may beg to differ, saying that I’m too young to say this, to young to know what it is but what better advice to follow then your own? Who knows me better than I do? So I’ll take my chances. I’m so spoilt. So used to getting what I want. This would be the first time I have to work hard for something I want so much. Even my dad can’t help me out on this one. So listen to me world! Khad has an announcement to make! From now onwards, I’m going to decide things pertaining to my love life myself. I don’t care if I soar way beyond my boundaries. I don’t care if I’m at risk of falling from that kind of height. I know it’ll hurt if he leaves, but I will cherish every moment, treasure every memory we have together. Even our teasing texts. Still brings a smile to my face baby. Even now. =p Even if goes away, but since he is still here, I’ll tell you, I’ll tell him. I love him. I love him very much. I love you darling. I love you very much. I love you Mark. I really do.

Hair-Hair...

Hair-pee Burp-Dey Sue-High-La!!

Siti Nursuhaila Bte Sulaiman

Happy Birthday to dear Sweet Girl.
A present From Malia
Sweet wishes and See You on 15 April Perhaps...

Khad. [cantik tak aku, pakai baju t-do shop in? =)]

You won't believe it!!

Studying for Biology Paper on 040406.

Me and the one and only Dr. Martini. Inseparable!

Mark A. Kelly

This Is The Love Of My Life

A Walk Down Memory Lane

31 May 2006

Happy Birthday Malia!!!

August 1987....Then there was me...

Sometime after that, somethings went haywire..
Then I found a click of friends alike...
....and i can safely say it runs in the family

Khad's Back! Larger Than Live!

do you see what you do to me?

just 1 mail just 1.

my nerves are going haywire.

your touch would be sensual enough to send my brains splattering.

MARK YOU'RE GOOD!

hey hey. is it that easy to recite i love you to anyone without meaning it? or has the phrase been used and heard too frequently that it no longer bears any meaning?it would seem so. i've only heard in songs and stories on how it's expressed and about how fine and demure LOVE is.

How fragile it is. how affections run thru deep in its veins and the emotions it carries with it. But that's fiction. will it ever be reality? my guess is as much as yours, too manyt imes has it been abused, shamefully by yours truly herself. but i do not know the meaning too. haven't got the chance to feel it really. true i have my family and friends. but u know wat i mean.
once i tot i had, now it seems like it's gone. really close that one time i too buy too good to be true.
it ended before it even started. it costed a lot as well, my nights and dollars, knowing every single moment and cent was worth it. I'm not glad it's gone, dont even know if it really is.you were gone for so long while i'm stuck frozen in time left with nothing but wondering thoughts about where you are, what you're doing, how come u havent call, how come u could bear not letting me hear your voice( by the way it's killing me not being able to hear ur husky breaths at my ears), or at least let me knoe that you're alive. Just wanna know.

been asked how come the distance hasn't swayed my distinctive glow of happiness and perkiness in my walk and speech. how come the oceans and separation doesn't seem to have made me appear sullen and moody, angered and unaffected. Should I have shown? to make myself feel better and then hate you? could i ever? i asked myself that question everyday.
what do i do? cry in silence, tremble in darkness i guess. you often spoke of the kisses we couldn't have, cuddles and warmth we couldn't share. i'm not crazy. i'm not fazed. i'm in complete control of myself and i'm sound. or so it seems. i'm not psychotic. i'm not drunk. don't like leaving things hanging unanswered.

i write in words hoping you would read. send it in thoughts hoping you'd hear. if u decide that we'd walk in different dirrections, let it be ultimately that we walk in opposite directions.

i'm sorry if i sound clingy, if i sound foolish, hell, it took me living guts to have it here. swallowed pride and ego to tell you so now your turn. tell me you're living, you're happy. tell me you're well cos tat'll make me happy. Just tell me something. i'll be damned if i have to go thru life not knowing. tell me sweetheart. tell me, love. something. anything.

20 March 2006

Relaxing By the Pool...

Khad & Malia

Suhaila & Malia
Reliving the old memories of Yuying Secondary School together.
Suhaila & Khad
Khad & Malia

DA Lapar SEH... Masak Sendiri..

Sebelum tu.. shopping dulu[aik malia jual susu?]
penat kat swimming pool. suhaila gula dah naik lah tu..
a girls' day out!!

Sunday extravaganza @ CCK!!

Lulu Elisha...trying to look like me.
there is a first time for everything

The vogue but CRAZY GERL! Kamaliah Halim!

Happy me

Bring in The Balls, I'll start the Rolling!!

Done with the rolling. gots to sit and think about how to spend

the coming holidays..

Got tired of thinking... SO had to lie down before i hurt myself.

i look like an ANGEL.

HAHA!! Just kidding. Still standing strong okay!!

Dilemmas Of Independence: Khad's Story

hello, 1119 on a friday. the only friday i dont have to go home @ 2000 and i am at school. PHEUUWWW!! had a busy week holiday. 10 march is still a long way to go before those 3 very different stooges come back from BRUNEI. 10 march will also be Afandi's birthday. small world it is. anyway, going to gran's house after this the moment i finish downloading the bleach episodes. i really have to really on Nick for the Naruto episodes! so NICK! ONEGAISHIMASU! =) olrite. mom told me this morning that dad's getting a car for me but somehow i was rude enuff to tell her i dont need it to come from them.

i knoe my life long principle has always been: "What Khad Wants, Khad Always Gets"

it's true 90% of the time so far. i've been enjoying it so far. all i have to do is want it, tell my dad and he'll get it for me. i havent for anythign ridiculous of course and my dad is not crazy enuff to oblige if it was. his ego is as huge as his pride and it is the same for me in that case. thats why i tot it was about time i did things on my own. i cant forever depend on them. it's a nice feeling but everyone else is getting a car with their own money or taking their licence with their pocket money and savings. Me? I just ask from dad. if i don't start working soon, i'll never be able to get up on my feet in time.

i dunno if i should talk to my dad/mom about this. i think it'll just hurt their feelings. i hope i'll figure this out on my own and soon and eventually tell them about it. gently... *sighz*

ok...
thatisitfornow.jyane!

Khad

Welcome to the beach issue!!!

He was there!!!
so i'm happy!!!
then he left, so i m alone...
saw my friends... i started laughing

it's a crazy world i know....

khad

frenz

Psycho team
khad & Kin
Zarina Practicing the kiss of life
Memoirs of a class

Sam all ready to run!
Sally & Peifen
NR 0401
Errr... Adnan???