Make Smile.
it has been a long while since i last updated this blog.
definitely alot has been going on in my life but this is no one wants their life to be THAT open for the world to read like a book.
everything at work was so hectic, shit luck at work. it came down to tendering my resignation or push through the obstacles, which of course came with some scarifices and shitty time from superiors and colleagues. in my industry you cant afford to slip. i've learnt my lesson. so i started to pay a lil bit more attention to my work and it is starting to pay off. of course im juggling between that and spending time with my boyfriend.
then at home, well.. not exactly heaven at first. went through the mini version of hell with mom and dad. so far it has settled down. have to win back their trust. not really sure what they want from me till now. but i'll make do with what i THINK they expect of me.sigh. growing up is such a pain in the neck. i had huge fights with my parents, screaming slapping, i almost ran away from home.
a few surprises in the matters of the heart. time really changes everything. if you sit down and really think about what matters to you, you wont find much. it's how much value other people place on a certain position, thing or incident that makes us worry about the things we do.
ive come to care about you more than i thought i would. i did try to forget you but you're THAT significant that i just cannot. when i rest i will be thinking of you, when i sleep i will be dreaming of you. you're that someone whom i cant wait to see everyday and spend every single minute of my day with. please do not mistake my naiveness for obliviousness. i know what is it that people say, i know what it really is but i chose to trust you and trust you i will. believing in you despite what i hear. innocent until proven guilty. despite everything, you're still here with me, you hold me when i cry, you make smile. you're someone i can lean on, someone i'd trust my life with, except in the open sea. =) i hope that one day you can think of me that way, you can trust me that much.