what is one to do when you are struck by cupid's arrow twice? the first hasnt been removed and you're down by another.. man am i in a fix or what? tell me man.. but all in all im happy. but remorsely filled with guilt. cried myself to sleep.. talking to yself. been going on for weeks now.. i think im depressed.....
NAH!!! Just Kidding! HAHA. did u really think i'd be that kind to step my legs in 2 boats at one time. i'm a 1 man woman. loyal and jealous. lol. so.. I love you baby! but i need to be clear of what is it that you want with me. if u want it to be US, then tell.. not only tell me... show me. love without proper encouragement, not everyone has that kind of security in themselves to hang on to a thread as thin as that baby. just remember that aside all that make-up covered beauty.. im still a woman with a real heart, with real feelings. im asking you to look aside all that teasing, sharp wit and words to know that i can get hurt too. i have strength but there is only so much before i break and block myself away, again. 
the barrier erected then would be far higher than ever. not even u can breach it again.. hold to your promises like i do. then if u cannot, dont make them. you cannot lose something you never had. But other than that, life has been very sweet and sensational. i like it. i love it. star gazing.. alone. it is the most wonderfulthing to do since chocolate. imagine that. i really got to clear my head.. and thought straight. hehe. i never wanted to be so confused, i never wanted to be this brain-addled. im no bimbo.. im no ainstein either. lol... so im asking for a chance to prove myself. give me that chance.
Khad.