A Walk Down Memory Lane

31 May 2006

Happy Birthday Malia!!!

August 1987....Then there was me...

Sometime after that, somethings went haywire..
Then I found a click of friends alike...
....and i can safely say it runs in the family

Khad's Back! Larger Than Live!

do you see what you do to me?

just 1 mail just 1.

my nerves are going haywire.

your touch would be sensual enough to send my brains splattering.

MARK YOU'RE GOOD!

hey hey. is it that easy to recite i love you to anyone without meaning it? or has the phrase been used and heard too frequently that it no longer bears any meaning?it would seem so. i've only heard in songs and stories on how it's expressed and about how fine and demure LOVE is.

How fragile it is. how affections run thru deep in its veins and the emotions it carries with it. But that's fiction. will it ever be reality? my guess is as much as yours, too manyt imes has it been abused, shamefully by yours truly herself. but i do not know the meaning too. haven't got the chance to feel it really. true i have my family and friends. but u know wat i mean.
once i tot i had, now it seems like it's gone. really close that one time i too buy too good to be true.
it ended before it even started. it costed a lot as well, my nights and dollars, knowing every single moment and cent was worth it. I'm not glad it's gone, dont even know if it really is.you were gone for so long while i'm stuck frozen in time left with nothing but wondering thoughts about where you are, what you're doing, how come u havent call, how come u could bear not letting me hear your voice( by the way it's killing me not being able to hear ur husky breaths at my ears), or at least let me knoe that you're alive. Just wanna know.

been asked how come the distance hasn't swayed my distinctive glow of happiness and perkiness in my walk and speech. how come the oceans and separation doesn't seem to have made me appear sullen and moody, angered and unaffected. Should I have shown? to make myself feel better and then hate you? could i ever? i asked myself that question everyday.
what do i do? cry in silence, tremble in darkness i guess. you often spoke of the kisses we couldn't have, cuddles and warmth we couldn't share. i'm not crazy. i'm not fazed. i'm in complete control of myself and i'm sound. or so it seems. i'm not psychotic. i'm not drunk. don't like leaving things hanging unanswered.

i write in words hoping you would read. send it in thoughts hoping you'd hear. if u decide that we'd walk in different dirrections, let it be ultimately that we walk in opposite directions.

i'm sorry if i sound clingy, if i sound foolish, hell, it took me living guts to have it here. swallowed pride and ego to tell you so now your turn. tell me you're living, you're happy. tell me you're well cos tat'll make me happy. Just tell me something. i'll be damned if i have to go thru life not knowing. tell me sweetheart. tell me, love. something. anything.

20 March 2006

Relaxing By the Pool...

Khad & Malia

Suhaila & Malia
Reliving the old memories of Yuying Secondary School together.
Suhaila & Khad
Khad & Malia

DA Lapar SEH... Masak Sendiri..

Sebelum tu.. shopping dulu[aik malia jual susu?]
penat kat swimming pool. suhaila gula dah naik lah tu..
a girls' day out!!

Sunday extravaganza @ CCK!!

Lulu Elisha...trying to look like me.
there is a first time for everything

The vogue but CRAZY GERL! Kamaliah Halim!

Happy me

Bring in The Balls, I'll start the Rolling!!

Done with the rolling. gots to sit and think about how to spend

the coming holidays..

Got tired of thinking... SO had to lie down before i hurt myself.

i look like an ANGEL.

HAHA!! Just kidding. Still standing strong okay!!

Dilemmas Of Independence: Khad's Story

hello, 1119 on a friday. the only friday i dont have to go home @ 2000 and i am at school. PHEUUWWW!! had a busy week holiday. 10 march is still a long way to go before those 3 very different stooges come back from BRUNEI. 10 march will also be Afandi's birthday. small world it is. anyway, going to gran's house after this the moment i finish downloading the bleach episodes. i really have to really on Nick for the Naruto episodes! so NICK! ONEGAISHIMASU! =) olrite. mom told me this morning that dad's getting a car for me but somehow i was rude enuff to tell her i dont need it to come from them.

i knoe my life long principle has always been: "What Khad Wants, Khad Always Gets"

it's true 90% of the time so far. i've been enjoying it so far. all i have to do is want it, tell my dad and he'll get it for me. i havent for anythign ridiculous of course and my dad is not crazy enuff to oblige if it was. his ego is as huge as his pride and it is the same for me in that case. thats why i tot it was about time i did things on my own. i cant forever depend on them. it's a nice feeling but everyone else is getting a car with their own money or taking their licence with their pocket money and savings. Me? I just ask from dad. if i don't start working soon, i'll never be able to get up on my feet in time.

i dunno if i should talk to my dad/mom about this. i think it'll just hurt their feelings. i hope i'll figure this out on my own and soon and eventually tell them about it. gently... *sighz*

ok...
thatisitfornow.jyane!

Khad

Welcome to the beach issue!!!

He was there!!!
so i'm happy!!!
then he left, so i m alone...
saw my friends... i started laughing

it's a crazy world i know....

khad