Monday, September 27, 2004

..:::Today in Life Of Khadiology:::..

I really dun have anything to wory about now. Now that I know you are happy, I won't interfere. I won't come in your way. I won't hang around. It's not possible, it never was. I wonder why I even bothered in the first place.. Don't worry, I won't cry, because I don't have any tears left to spare. I won't fear because I'm so strong.
You leave, that's fine with me. but don't ever come back. Don't you dare! Don't, because I don't want to hate you, I don't. Just leave quietly and make your presence unknown. I'll forgo everything that we shared, everything that we had. Don't ask me why and don't ask me how come. It's just the way it is ok? Just the way it is.
You don't do the asking of questions here because I have no answers for them. You don't ask me why I did it because you don't have the right to, not anymore. Never you mind how I will carry on. Never you mind if or not I will be ok. Never you mind all that. Never you mind. If I have to break myself, to find the peace to carry on, I will, I can handle it. I don't need you to be my strength, not anymore. Not anymore! You hear me?!
You don't have to stay arount to make sure that I'm alright. You don't have to. I didn't lose anything. Because I cannot lose something that isn't mine in the first place. It's funny how I really feel..neither sad nor angry. Not even disappointed. How come? I was looking forward to be happy, I never was until now. Until now..
It isn't worth wondering who will win now, because I already have, I always do. This, I have told you before. I Won. I'm not just comforting myself. I never had to. Never had.




"Leave From My Sight. Go Away. Leave me..and NEVER come back."
"Because I Don't Wish To Hate You, I Don't..So Just Go..Just Go"
..::[Khad]::..
Prof Khad.MBBS.
PhD In Bitchiology
University Of Gotham City