Crazy In Love
been staying back in school till late. apart from settling that heavy task, which no one seems to think i'm doing, i have been (ahem) romancing online. Lol. nah just kidding. how does someone be in love with another who is so faraway and trust him/her so much? well i'd like to answer every person who has ever asked me that but i wish i knew. seriously, you think i planned all this? no way.. i've only hoped and dreamt about it since the day i understood the meaning of love. when i lost love thru someone i least expected lose, i then found love in the person i least expect to meet. the perfection that graces the many nights of my dreams, my Mark. Malliga did say i was a blessed girl.. before i always tot i was born wretched and cursed(still do by some) but when i tot about it again, i have the greatest balance of family one can ever ask for, demure, outrages, kind and wicked, fun and subtle. wasn't enough, everybody started having partners and someone to call their own. quite sad there. then i met Mark. or rather i found him. -Thank you MSN. in any case, i fell in love with him. still do.. every day from the day i knew i had to talk to him again or die. (just a feeling) then it grew. a friendship, teasing, messing, laughing, flirting. now i've come to like him a lot. or rather, adore him, miss him everytime that i'm not talking to him. i envy. envy those who are able to look their love in the eye everyday, hold their love, kiss their love anytime. I envy them. Mark is worth the wait. every second, every minute, every hour i wait. i know i can do this. i dunno how and where i get the patience from but i'm holding on. but not sure if i'm holding on to something that can be mine, eventually. dreams come true and i hope this one does. i cannot imagine waking up and seeing some other face. cannot picture myself walking on the beach with anyone but him. cannot possibly want to share the rest of my life with someone other than Mark. I love you, baby.
~Khad~
