Different Distance

No. He says. He doesn’t have any doubts. Feeling confident of a happily ever after for the both of us. Looks that way he says. I don’t doubt my feelings for him. It's there, it’ll always be there. I don’t doubt his feelings either. It’s just the distance. Everyday, I wonder, even for the briefest moment, if this is all real. If HE is real because when everything starts looking good, we women would wonder. Excuse me for thinking like a woman. Now I know why the gents get irritated with the ladies when they do. In their minds, they would be wondering why we can’t be satisfied with what we have. Why can’t we take things for what they are? Well you see gentlemen, if we did, then we’d all be homosexuals because then there’d be no difference between us. We’d all be men. Pardon us for that’s just the way it is. So I’m entitled to have my fair share of doubts. It’s because I love you that I think so much. It’s because I care that makes me so worried about us. It’s because I treasure your existence that I don’t want to lose you. So let me dwell in my misery, confuse myself in worries and anxieties and go crazy. If that’s what it is like to love you then so be it. I’ll go through it. Endure it. Make it. Hopefully with that happily ever after as an ending. I do belong to you. My whole heart belongs to you. Some may beg to differ, saying that I’m too young to say this, to young to know what it is but what better advice to follow then your own? Who knows me better than I do? So I’ll take my chances. I’m so spoilt. So used to getting what I want. This would be the first time I have to work hard for something I want so much. Even my dad can’t help me out on this one. So listen to me world! Khad has an announcement to make! From now onwards, I’m going to decide things pertaining to my love life myself. I don’t care if I soar way beyond my boundaries. I don’t care if I’m at risk of falling from that kind of height. I know it’ll hurt if he leaves, but I will cherish every moment, treasure every memory we have together. Even our teasing texts. Still brings a smile to my face baby. Even now. =p Even if goes away, but since he is still here, I’ll tell you, I’ll tell him. I love him. I love him very much. I love you darling. I love you very much. I love you Mark. I really do.